SUCCESS SCARES ME

 

 

My blog Styling With Sheila J is a product of my live and you learn blog, ModelSavings.com.  I thought it was a good idea at the time but as the months turned into a year and a year turned into 2. I thought that that converting to word press self hosted from blogger not realizing how much of a financial burden this may cost me. Now as many of you know I am all about saving money, but I was wasting money more than making money and my blog was not doing what it was supposed to do. As my life began to spiral down hill, and began to feel all over the place so did my blog.

It took months of frustration and my blog being cut off and on from blue host for me to say enough was enough and ask God for clarity on what I should do by still remaining true to myself and what I wanted to do in my life and career. One day as I was on the phone with blue host trying to regain my domain name from them that was on lock due to a bank situation, I asked should I have even be doing this or should I just give up on this idea of model savings. The whole concept behind model savings was the fact that I am a model who loves to save money. However it seems as if that concept didn’t appeal to many models at all. The aggravation!

One thing is for sure my blog posts stylingwithsheilaj.com appealed to everyone, thus my new blog being called stylingwithsheilaj.com. Now what scares me is success, I just launched the first blog post on Jan 8th,2015 with the blog post 21 Apps that Will Make and Save You Money. I would have never guessed that a week later that same blog post would have went viral making my blog reach 22,000 view in under a months time. The irony of it all is that before I write every blog post is that I pray ask God to write my blog posts because with out him I am now nothing and I can not do anything with out him.

This idea of success scares me so much because I know success for me is right around the corner and I feel it coming very soon. And I have no idea of what to do with it. I have been struggling for so long that the idea of having a million dollars scares me. Why? Because with that comes taxes and with the a million ways that I have figured out how to make money from ,  I have no idea of how to maneuver with taxes and how to pay my taxes with so much money coming in. With money and success comes things that I am not used to. So god you are gonna have to do what you do best and help me in the process because lord knows I would not know what to do.

What does the bible say about success?

Proverbs 29:18King James Version (KJV)

18 Where there is no vision, the people perish: but he that keepeth the law, happy is he.

Granted I have a vision but I never imagined it happening this fast. It amazes me and it’s all because I sat down wrote out the vision like it says in Habakkuk 2:2.

“Success depends on three things: who says it, what he says, how he says it; and of these three things, what he says is the least important.”

When King David was about to die, he gave his son, Solomon, the following advice: “Do what the LORD your God commands and follow his teachings. Obey everything written in the Law of Moses. Then you will be a success, no matter what you do or where you go” (1 Kings 2:3 CEV).

Genesis 39:2-6 “The Lord was with Joseph, and he was a successful man; and he was in the house of his master the Egyptian. And his master saw that the Lord was with him and that the Lord made all he did to prosper in his hand. So Joseph found favor in his sight, and served him. Then he made him overseer of his house, and all that he had he put under his authority. So it was, from the time that he had made him overseer of his house and all that he had, that the Lord blessed the Egyptian’s house for Joseph’s sake; and the blessing of the Lord was on all that he had in the house and in the field. Thus he left all that he had in Joseph’s hand, and he did not know what he had except for the bread which he ate.”

Psalm 1:1-3 “Blessed is the man who walks not in the counsel of the wicked, nor stands in the way of sinners, nor sits in the seat of scoffers; but his delight is in the law of the Lord, and on his law he meditates day and night. He is like a tree planted by streams of water that yields its fruit in its season, and its leaf does not wither. In all that he does, he prospers.”

If you are not walking with advice of the wicked nor standing in the way of sinners or the way that sinners are going and are also not sitting in the seat of people who talk bad about god then God will bless you. To be blessed means to literally make you happy to your hearts desires. Your happiness will naturally be in God’s law and you will meditate day or night (all the time) and this means that like a tree planted by a stream of water, you will never dry up or die because you will always produce godly fruit and everything you do will prosper

Proverbs 3:1-4 “My son, do not forget my teaching, but let your heart keep my commandments, for length of days and years of life and peace they will add to you. Let not steadfast love and faithfulness forsake you; bind them around your neck; write them on the tablet of your heart. So you will find favor and good success in the sight of God and man.”

The Word of God and write the words onto the tablet of our heart. The heart, in the Jewish language, was the seat of intellect. Pretty much what you have to do is memorize the Bible well not all of it but some of it. If you do this you will have “length of days and years of life” and “you will find favor and good success.” What more could a man or woman want.